Today...

Today was family Bunko day. Enjoyable.

We had planned on going back to church today but ended up only sending Jade and Zack. It's hard to go back, to want to go back after 6 months. We are in a stage in our lives, where we just need to be fed, we need to hear a good sermon, some good worship music, have some good fellowship, fill up! We have been through some hard times...virtually alone (except for our parents and a friend or two) It's hard to go back to church, where nobody knows (and may not even care) that we are not the same as we were the last time they saw us. I am harder. I am tired. I am worn out. I am tired of being tired and worn out. I fight bitterness daily. As well as resentment and jealousy. I cry out "It's not fair!" but nothing changes...because life is not fair. I struggle with fear, whether it be rational or not, it does not matter. Many are experiencing life's hardships. I am not elite or special in this. I just wish I handled it better.

"I laugh because I must not cry that is all, that is all."

"If I did not laugh, I should die"

Both quotes that I love by Abraham Lincoln.

Then again, I love many things that people say. Maybe I'll share some later.

The sound of ripping paper is in the hall...

We have discovered several pieces of paper, homework and sheets of music, with holes and rips and tears. On closer examination those holes were found to be made by TEETH! Not knowing who the culpret was, we had to let it go.....until we heard the sound of someone ripping paper in the hall way. I went to the doorway hoping to catch them in the act, but no one was in the hall. I waited....Josiah came walking from other end of the hallway, Harley and Isaac were already in my room, Naissa and Zack were in the front room and Jade was in her room...that left three!

Jim wouldn't make a mess of shredded paper....so that left two!

Harley and Josiah were innocent. Harley should be able to get her cone and stitches removed tomorrow (Monday) and Josiah...well, he just warms my heart because he is so much like Zeke. He has taken to Harley as if she were his mom.

Grizabella ("gray beauty") did not have an alibi and I've seen her go after and take paper balls from Isaac when we were playing basketball with wads of paper. Hmmm?! She went into heat today! She is not quiet about it either!

Minnie Pearl, has since been CAUGHT tearing up with her claws and ripping with her teeth one of Naissa's papers. Jade also caught her putting teeth marks in a 75 year old copy of Little Men!!

GUILTY!!

Minnie is also in heat, and she sounds like a pigeon...

Lucky us! It's true, there is no such thing as a "FREE" kitten!